Do you want a couple of kids? (mentions illegal activity)

30 July 2010

Yesterday morning our receptionist said to me “I’m so exhausted! Do you want a couple of kids?” implying I could have hers. I replied “I would love to have a couple of kids actually” and walked away. She doesn't know about our struggles, but I have asked her before not to continually question me about when I am planning to have children. I am sure she suspects something especially with all my "sick" days recently.

She later came to apologize, and told me she and her husband had recently split up. Of course she doesn't want to get rid of her kids, she’s just at the end of her rope. I know she didn’t mean to hurt me with what she said, but I can't help but feel hurt by something like that. I told her that I was really sorry to hear about the separation and that I had just failed another fertility treatment cycle, so it caught me at a bad time too.

She thinks that she understands because she had a girlfriend go through IF who conceived twins on her 3rd attempt with Clomid. Well not exactly the same, but whatever, good for her friend. She also told me about someone she knows who is pregnant by mistake and is considering giving up her baby if I was interested. Whoa! Thanks, but we're not there yet.

I guess everyone has their issues. I don't wish I was in her shoes, but in a sick and twisted way I am still envious that even though she lost her husband, she has two beautiful children to go home at night and snuggle.

When I told my husband about it, he asked the ages of the kids and how cute they were. He then said this woman better be careful what she wishes for because he might just snatch them when she's not looking. LOL -now I think IF has turned my husband into a crazy man! It's scary when you can relate more to being a kidnapper than a parent. We even own a van with curtains in the back...